<RoSKi>

<oDe>

Notes

This is my Ode to the patriarical lineage of my family.
I wrote the first 1/3 around about 2005 and is heavily inspired by the style of Goodbye Blue Sky by Pink Floyd
and hints of stairway to heaven

I have no children and it is unlikely I ever will, so the lineage is in th ehands of my brother and my nephews.

<FRee aRT>

Lyrics:

Free Art

Squeeze the stone till you find blood
Drag that stone right through the mud
Charge us like a wounded Bull
Over our eyes you pull the wool
Pay to win no more free spin
Sell us your immoral sin
Exploit psychologically
Manipulate our dopamine

Free art

Purchase famous endorsements
Sell a nightmare as a dream
Exploit childhood memories
Tell us it is more than it seems
Comodify it we will buy it
Microdose those transactions
Fomo and commerialism
We cant get no satisfaction

Free Art

Life inside a skinner box
Dilution is your solution
The reactions you will watch
Cookie cutter revelation
Conveyor belt pumps out trash
We ingest it like fast food
Leaving us full but empty
Introspection you elude

Free Art

Notes

This song is about how money almost always ruins art. Video games, music, TV shows, YouTube channels, and movies. Whenever profit becomes a motivator the art always suffers. This is my plea for more people to free art from the shackles of commercialism and to produce more free art. It's a double meaning. How clever.

<SaLT>

Lyrics:

SaLT

I'm not weird
Messed up in the head
See the blood I bled
You will notice that its red

Weird is normality
Weird is conformity
Weird Is pretending that you care about the thought of me

I'm not trying to be
Anything but me
And all that you see
Is somehow hilarity
But is it so funny or is it jealousy,
That I seem so free with individuality?

Let me be me
Let me be

I'm not insane
Messed up in the brain
Look into these eyes
Can you not see pain?

Insanity is tradition
Insanity is suspicion
Insanity is refusing to live according to your volition

Let You be you
Do what you want to do
A kid that never grew
A soul pure and true
For when the day is through
the old that you knew
Is merely a point of view
Someone else drew

Let you be you
Let you be

I tried to be normal
I tried to save face
And when I tried
I was more out of place
My dad always said that it's mind over matter
Those who matter don't mind
And those who mind don't matter

I'm not an alien Messed up in the cranium
Stare into my soul You will find i'm homosapien
Alien is subscription
Alien is conscription
Alien is forgetting that you need no one's permission.

Let we be we
Let the world see
Our creativity
And ingenuity
let our Need to be free
Fuel our own destiny
Exist relatively
Not comparatively

Let we be we
Let we be

Let me be me
Let you be you
Let we be we
Let we be

Notes

I have always been seen as a little different. Often in a positive way, but not always.
I would love to be able to truly just be me, without everyone asking questions or judging. I would love the same for all.
I actively encourage everyone to be themselve unapologetically.
The music is entirely made from sampling sounds from the song "Pepper" by The Butthole Surfers. hence the title.

<D.B.F>

Lyrics:

D.B.F

Two tubes
One mouth
It's hot
Down south

No fear
No doubt
Just steel
In mouth

Double barrel felatio

Taste metal
Feels fine
On buckshot
I'll dine

Two loads
One hole
A mouthful
My goal

Double barrel felatio

Put it in your mouth
Shoot your load

Double barrel felatio

Notes

This song is about sucking off a loaded shotgun.
Its about suicide. A lot of my songs are about suicide. It is designed to feel fun, and even sexual in nature until the last half which turns a little more chaotic.
I love trying to fit multiple meanings in songs.

The video was a lot of fun to make. The dancing is meant to feel somewhat homoerotic, mildly inspired by Buffalo Bill from silence of the lambs. Its suppose to make one feel uncomfortable.
The dancing is shit. If I had shame I'm sure I would feel embarrassed.

<eYe DuDe RuGS>

Lyrics:

Eye Dude Rugs

I hate my life so i take drugs.

I need to escape so i take drugs.
The doctor said to stop taking drugs.
Then to cheer me up he gave me some drugs.

I had to take drugs to get me off those drugs
I had to take drugs to get me off those drugs

Now i dont do drugs.

Except the drugs to fix me
Except the drugs to fix me
From the damage done by drugs

And the socially acceptable
And the socially acceptable
commercially marketable
commercially marketable
mass consumable
mass consumable
Politically approved
Politically approved
Politically approved
Politically approved
Bought ones

I do drugs.

I hate my life so i take drugs
I need to escape so i take drugs
I hate my life so i take drugs
I need to escape so i take drugs

I hate my life so i take drugs
I need to escape so i take drugs

The doctor said to stop taking drugs.
Then to cheer me up he gave me some drugs.

I had to take drugs to get me off those drugs
I had to take drugs to get me off those drugs

Now i dont do drugs.

Except the drugs to fix me
Except the drugs to fix me
Except the drugs to fix me
Except the drugs to fix me
From the damage done by drugs

And the socially acceptable
And the socially acceptable
commercially marketable
commercially marketable
mass consumable
mass consumable
mass consumable
mass consumable
Politically approved
Politically approved
Politically approved
Politically approved
Bought ones

I do drugs.

Notes

I have done all I can to escape the mortal prison my soul has been trapped in.
Often this has come in the form of mind altering drugs. I have always found it ironic that when I try to get help from a medical professional their solution is just a legal version of what I was already doing. This is something that has me worried about how much help is actually being provided, or if help is even the end goal.
My advice to anyone is to not do drugs. They are fun as hell, but they are the easy way out, and nothing easy in life is worth doing.

This song was my first real experiment in ignoring all my gut feelings, and trying a bunch of things I would rarely do. I find it extremely hard at times to step away from the rules I have set for music within my mind. even what I consider strange music. still not as weird as I would like to go, but keeping it listenable is always the focus.

<HaNGiNG ouT aLoNe>

Lyrics:

Hanging out alone.

The streets are quiet below.
Below my isolate home
Home is all I have to show
Show me which way to go.

Bother me no more
More peace im looking for
For i will finally score
Score from my second floor

Cause im hanging out alone
In no shirt or shoes
Cause im hanging out alone
Ive got nothing left to lose

My only goal has been set
Set to make me forget
Forget about what i regret
Regret i will beget.

I know what i have to do
Do something kind of wrong
Wrong not for me but for you
You know i tried to stay strong

Cause im hanging out alone
In no shirt or shoes
Cause im hanging out alone
Ive got nothing left to lose

Notes

I wrote this song after I found a man hanging from his hotel room after the first covid lockdown.
He was wearing nothing but a pair of grey sweatpants, and had used what appeared to be a bed sheet.
While I called the police the operator had me stay in the area and on the phone while my work mate tried to alert the owners of the hotel
This is my attempt at giving the man a peaceful ending in my own head.
I hope he is in a better place.